Strange. I am more full of passion and joy now, after a night of fellowship and ministry in my home, than I have been in a long time.
Circumstantially:
1. My wife and kids are out of town (I hate that.)
2. I have had no work at all for the last two days, and little in the last three weeks (I really hate that).
But inwardly, I have come to so fully trust God and His process in me. I have TOTAL CONFIDENCE in God’s plan to bless, prosper, and not to harm. I believe, that the positive and encouraging prophesies spoken over myself and my family will come to pass, even in the midst of what seems to be a failing end-times world environment.
I FINALLY have the hunger for the Word that I prayed for several months ago. I am EAGER to get back into the presence of God. When Satan wins a round with my stupid weaknesses, I do not allow guilt to keep me from ministering and from fighting back. Ther is NO unconfessed sin in my life, and it feels REALLY GOOD.
For years, I’ve been telling people, “Don’t worry… it’s not Biblical!” Now, I don’t worry. I just wait. I can’t wait to see how God will pull me out of my financial mess. I can’t wait to see how God will provide for me and my girls in a failing economy. I can’t wait to see continued blessings of health and protection, signs and miracles that make me wonder, and for the next chance to tear down the works of the devil and set someone free.
The physical is becoming what happens in between the times that really matter – time spent in the presence of a God that most people only wonder about.
Life is cool. I don’t care what my mortgage company says about it.
Emma and I know what’s really going on.
I think she can still see them.